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My little Lolita will be 1 in a few weeks. When the fuck did THAT happen?! She's the sweetest thing. And she is totally a Momma's girl!! Again.....how the fuck did THAT happen?! Remember when I said that I wanted a "Momma's boy" when I was pregnant with my son? Well, he's a Daddy's boy and she's a Momma's girl. I'm totally ok with that. :) She is MY Lo!!!!
Just wanted to say Hi in case anyone still reads this thing I wasn't away on purpose!!! Damn over heating MACS!! LOL!!! Here are a few pix.......
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The Last House On The Left..........my God. Great movie. BUT! I had a very hard time watching it. The rape scene was horrendous and I cried the entire time until it was over and then I cried some more. I kept seeing my child in her place and it hurt. That girl should get some an award for her performance. She was good. Others may not think so, but I do. It's gruesome, and they show a lot, but I actually didn't mind. I WANTED to see the bad guys get hurt and killed. :)
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Movies.......movies I have! We have Let The Right One In, but we haven't had time to watch it because of the kids. They go to bed at 8 p.m. and and we're not far behind them. LOL! We went and saw WATCHMEN and I thought it was pretty good, but I couldn't get over how naked Mr. Manhattan was! I mean, really naked. o_0 Yes, I am immature. :) Anyway. If anyone has read any good books lately let me know!
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Things are well. Lolita is getting big. Bigger than most babies her age. She is in the 99th percentile, which is pretty darn big.Lex is well.....Lex! He's a 3 year old ball of energy. I have a very hard time keeping up with him. I'll be 35 this year. I love getting older, believe it or not, but having a toddler really wears on me. :) My oldest daughter will be 13 on Sunday. When did that happen?! Geesh! Anyway. I'm off in search of some courage. Hopefully I'll find some. :)
I hope all are well. Heather......your new place is beautiful. Vik......I'm very glad that you're happy, you deserve it. Anna......school will try to suck the life out of you! Be careful, my little Lolita. LOL! Everyone else.....I think of you every day and I hope all is well with each of you.
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But it also reminds me to never give up hope! LOL! I really hope she finds a husband. :)
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Your result for Which Tarot Card Represents Your Higher Self? Test...
The Chariot
3 0Fool, -1 1Magician, 6 2Priestess, 2 3Empress, -1 4Emperor, 0 5Hierophant, 1 6Lovers, 7 7Chariot, 2 8Strength, 3 9Hermit, 2 10WheelOfFortune, 1 11Justice, 2 12HangedMan, -1 13Death, 2 14Temperance, 1 15Devil, -1 16Tower, 0 17Star, 6 18Moon, 0 19Sun, -1 20Judgement and 0 21World!

It is somewhat of a mystery why the Chariot, clearly a card of force and of control, should be of the Water element. But its attribution to Cancer is indeed valid because this card deals heavily with the emotions. Specifically, the Chariot is a card of emotional control; the power of the mind to shape the desires of the heart and direct them to meaningful expression. This is not the emotional control of the Emperor, who totally supresses all of his emotions in favor of logic and reason. The man driving the Chariot knows that his emotions are not to be swept under the rug, but trained and used to his greater good.
The triumph over both positive and negative emotions is often shown by two horses or sphinxes of different colors pulling the Chariot. Though on their own they would run wild and untamed, going in whichever direction they chose to go, here they move only forward. So they still have some power, but this power has now been directed and focused by the man holding the reins. The chariot cannot move without horses to pull it, just as we cannot function without our emotions to drive us. But without the control of the chariot, the horses would run free, just as our emotions can run wild when unchecked and uncontrolled. Balance is needed.
The Chariot embodies the type of discipline that is necessary to gain control over the emotions, and this is why a military symbol has been chosen for this card. The purpose of the harsh conditions of the military is to develop the will and the ability needed to control emotions and put them to productive use on the battlefield. Only through the mastery of yourself can you ever hope to achieve mastery over others and your environment. The wisdom and the glory gained through conquering one's enemies is nothing compared to the self-esteem you build through defeating your fear. Inner enemies are often tougher to defeat than outer ones, and thus teach you much more.
Through the application of emotional force we can learn to achieve our goals and desires much more quickly. For someone like the man on the Chariot, who is in total control of his will and his emotions, almost anything is within his grasp. In the Thoth deck, written across the canopy of the Chariot is the word Abracadabra, which may seem foolish at first glance. What is the stage magician's catchphrase doing here - is there magic involved? No, there is no magic. Abracadabra comes from Hebrew, and it translates roughly to "What I have said will be done" or "As it is said, so it shall be." Nothing embodies the spirit of the Chariot more than this word.
The appearance of the Chariot often shows a need to take control of your emotions and, instead of wasting energy grieving or complaining, use that energy to take action and to make changes in the world. Fear will cripple you unless, like the Chariot demands, you can acknowledge it and face it. Then you can use your fear constructively, for your own purposes. But this type of control is not limited to the negative emotions. In relationships the Chariot often shows how idle infatuation can be transformed into passion and confidence. Through controlling your emotions, the Chariot says, you will eventually learn to control yourself.
And once you have reached that stage, anything is possible! Once you have transcended your fears you start transcending your restrictions until nothing can hold you back from the success you deserve. The Chariot's appearance is often the herald of victory through discipline and confidence, a moment where all opposition lies defeated. Great success and achievements will come to you if you master your passions and believe in the power of your will. Do not let anything distract or sway you from your goals, and proceed with the straight flight of an arrow. Nothing is beyond your ability if you believe in your own power. Abracadabra!
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Friends of mine are going through a really rough time in their marriage and I keep getting phone calls from the wife and Kevin keeps getting calls from the hubby. ((sigh)) What a mess!!!! She won't leave the house, he won't leave the house.....can you say a fucking mess?! It's about to get real ugly and I hope they keep me out of it. o_O
Then there's my other friend who is on a path of self destruction. :( She only dates men who are already in relationships. O_O She says that she never knows until it's too late. In my opinion.....it's never to late to tell him to go fuck himself if he's married. First of all, it's just wrong. Then there's the whole Karma thing. It will ALWAYS catch up to you and boy is it a bitch when it does. It'll be 10 times worse for you then the person you hurt. Always, always, always treat everyone the way you want to be treated. Unless of course you just don't care about having a normal happy life, then do what you want. But let me tell you......once I stopped being a bitch to everyone and doing bad things to people just to make them miserable, my life got a Hell of a lot better and has stayed that way for a very long time. Don't get me wrong, it's veryhard to TRY to be nice and NOT fuck with other people, especially when I just don't like them at all, but I do it! She wonders why she's unhappy, single and no kids. Karma. Period.
((SIGH)) I feel so much better now.
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Life is busy. I have 3 children who keep me very busy. I've noticed that I do have more and more time lately. I'm sure that'll change once Lolita is mobile. o_O I just have to say this.......NO MORE KIDS FOR US!!! I'm way to busy. LOL!! My son is growing up so fast. I've been watching very closely for the changes so I wouldn't miss them. I've noticed them all. :) I don't want to miss a second!
I'll leave you with a few pictures..............
:)
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O_O I'M THERE!! And I'm taking my daughter with me. I love dogs, especially Chihuahuas.♥
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